February 2012
6 posts
"Just because I let you go, doesnt mean I wanted...
Its kind of a perfect quote. Life is always like this. Letting go of people, not because you want to but because it is what is best. Im slowly seeing that, and learning that. But I think the most difficult instances would be where I am at right now. When you realize that a person doesnt just stop needing you, but instead they move on in life. They grow up faster because of life, and move on to...
Next time I’ll be braver, I’ll be my own savior, when the thunder calls for me, next time I’ll be braver, I’ll be my own savior standing on my own two feet
Mexico
Ahh, I want to go back. I can’t describe the experience I had in a way that anyone else would understand. But my world was altered being there. There’s an image burned in my mind and my heart. Of this one lady, in the corner of the back of the bus, lost and searching. As I handed her a bible her eyes lite up and I saw a glimpse of hope run through her. That image, along with many more,...
January 2012
36 posts
am I numb? Can I no longer feel anything? What has happened to me? When I feel pain now, it doesn’t phase me like it use to. When I’m happy, I still feel lonely. Its like….. I put my guard up to the point of no return. No one can break me anymore. Not even God. What can I do? What can I do to make myself feel again. I would be happy to just feel anything….any pain….....
The worst feeling in the world is knowing you messed up, but then finding out someone messed up just as bad, and you have a slight feeling of relief. I shouldn’t have relief, neither of us should. We both messed up in two different ways, both just as bad.
You are good when there's nothing good in me.
artisticluv:
My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from the words of my groaning? O my God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer, by night and I am not silent. Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One; you are the praise of Israel. In you our fathers put their trust; they trusted and you delivered them. They cried to you and were saved; in you they...
Life use to be so simple. I’ve always been told there will come times I am tested, and times that I fail that test, but I never really understood what that meant until now. The failing part at least, I feel so far from God right now its almost as if I have nothing to live for in my life except myself. and I hate that feeling with every ounce in my body. I want to live for God, I’m in...
Lubbock. You’re calling my name. Please hurry and take me back, before I throw rocks.
“When the shaded start coming down, the guilt you feel is the last thing in your...”
– David Nail
2011
I was blessed with so much. Of course, there were ups and downs. Tears of joy, and tears of sadness, but over all, I spent it with the people I love most, and that’s all that matters. I brought in the new year continuing my senior year. And it was a great year. I began to truly understand the meaning of friendship, and I gained my best friend. Along with many many many very close friends. I...
December 2011
41 posts
“And we know it’s never simple, never easy, never a clean break, no one...”
– Taylor swift
